Yesterday was my night off from exercise.
On Wednesdays I go to dance mania and then TRX. I’m often really sore from TRX as I work my @$$$$$$ off so it’s a perfect night off.
For some reason, when I have a night off, all I want to do it eat.
When I was picking up my son for his swim class, I couldn’t get donuts out of my head. So I decided, instead of obsessing about the donut, denying myself and then binging later, I would just buy a donut.
I went into honeydew donuts, bought one for me and one for my son (his favorite so how could I not get him one?).
I have to admit though, I did my best to enjoy every bite, but it just wasn’t as good as I wanted it to be.
What is important though is I decided to eat something, I ate it in moderation, and I tracked it.
Later that night I was feeling just munchy. I again decided not to fight. I just don’t think I had it in me to fight myself last night.
Again, the good news was I tracked it and I kept the portions low. One portion of popcorn and one portion of cheez-its.
I ended up over by about 400 calories yesterday so I consider that a victory.
I consider last night a victory. I’m a little bloated this morning from all the salt, but I feel good that I didn’t binge. I totally snacked, but it was far from a binge.
Instead of fighting with myself for hours and then giving in, I just made a choice.
I don’t feel guilty today. I don’t feel upset.
I am feeling cautious though. Even though last night was ok with me, I’m afraid it will become a habit and that is not a good thing.
I can be ok with nights like last night as long as it doesn’t become a nightly thing.