I’ve been having a very raw day today (hence my earlier post).
I’ve been working on myself a lot lately and that adds to it, but because I’m sharing and putting myself out there as part of my therapy/recovery/whatever you want to call it, I have compliments coming back.
When I post on the message board and then someone says that I’m helping them or inspiring them, shouldn’t that be a good thing? You would think so.
What sucks is I love to think that I can help others while helping myself, but then it feels like pressure to have all of the answers and be perfect.
That is what we talked about a lot in therapy.
How when I’m typing these things out and how when I’m talking about them on a message board or responding to someone on the message board, it’s not always because I have the answers or doing what I need to be doing for myself, it’s because I need to tell myself the same thing!
How whenever someone notices my weight loss or healthy eating or something that is going right in my life, that is when I feel the pressure to be perfect, then I go “all or nothing”, and then I self sabotage and gain. If I can’t be perfect, why am I bothering?
I have to remember that I don’t have to be perfect for me or anyone else. I don’t have to be someone’s example. I don’t have to be a leader. I don’t have to have that pressure.
It’s ok not to be perfect.