As I mentioned in an earlier post, my husband came home from a business trip with chocolate: http://www.hawaiianhost.com/dark-chocolate-covered-macadamias.html.
Yesterday, I had a shitty day at work. I not only had a meeting where I felt I got a little blindsided, but my emotions ended up showing a bit and I regret some of my actions. I don’t think I was unprofessional, but I still hold myself to a higher standard.
I think I’m also PMS’ing, which doesn’t help.
I say that I think I’m PMS’ing because I have an IUD and I don’t get my period anymore thanks to it, but I still get some PMS symptoms and there are all there right now.
So when I left work, I felt terrible. I was doing a lot of circular thinking (kept thinking about what happened over and over again and what I should have done different). I was feeling a lot of fear and anxiety over being wrong, but also a lot of anger over feeling disrespected.
What I wanted was for all of those feelings to go away. I didn’t want to talk about them, I just wanted them gone.
In the past, to get rid of them, I would have blown off the gym and gone home and had a big old binge.
I did go to the gym, but I ended up blowing off my TRX class.
On Wednesdays I normally do Zumba and then TRX, but during Zumba my muscles were hurting, I felt like I had no range of motion, and I was feeling like I had no energy. I could tell doing a second class at that point was a mistake.
On the way home, with the way my muscles were feeling all stiff and after the shitty day, I decided to treat myself to a massage.
So I went home, quickly ate some dinner and one piece of the chocolate, went to http://www.herbalfootspa.com/ and got their 90 minute service that included 60 minutes Asian body work (TUINA) and a 39 minute reflexology.
Even during the massage, I had to keep bringing my mind back to the present. It was wonderful for my mind and my body though and just what I needed.
What I like about TUINA is it’s closer to a sports massage and involves a lot of accupressure. It’s not quite the relaxing, zen, rubbing experience that some people want from a massage. If you really want your muscles worked on though, this is for you.
By the time I got home I was a bit more relaxed and tired. I chose to eat two more pieces of chocolate (three is a serving size) and then went to bed a little more relaxed.
I feel a little better this morning, physically and mentally. What I’m really happy about though, is I didn’t eat my feelings and I was able to just enjoy a few pieces of chocolate.