I’ve made it past a bunch of great goals thanks to surgery and lifestyle changes. A couple of my big ones:
50 pounds lost, 75 pounds lost, and being under 250
The next big milestone is 100 pounds lost. Something that used to seem so completely far away that I couldn’t even imagine it.
With a bit of gain in the fall, It’s now 15 pounds away. I’ve gotten as close as 6 pounds away.
15 pounds used to seem like nothing and now it seems worlds away.
And it’s not like 100 pounds lost is my goal weight. I still have easily another 60 pounds away from there (if not more).
To keep from being overwhelming, I do try to only focus on the next small goal. 10 – 20 pounds at a time.
What is it about this goal that feels so unattainable and frustrating to me? Why do I get so close and then run from it?
Even writing right now seems to be bringing up raw emotions in me. Anxiety, fear, etc.
Why am I so afraid to succeed?
The good thing about it is I’m working on it and I’m NEVER EVER giving up.
Last year was a surgical year. Surgery has done what it can for me.
This year is a behavior year.
Not that I haven’t been working on my behavior the whole time, but right now behavior is what I’m focusing on.
I’m currently reading “The Emotional First Aid Kit: A Practical Guide to Life After Bariatric Surgery” by Cynthia Alexander.
I wish I had this book to read before the surgery as it gives you a lot of tips for preparing for the surgery as well.
In this book, in hypnotherapy, and in other areas, I keep reading/hearing/seeing things about positive self talk and what a difference it makes.
I am working on my “can do” attitude, so I can make it to 100 pounds gone and more.