I still consider yesterday a victory.
Last night I went to Zumba, came home, ate dinner and then was watching TV.
A couple of hours later, I truly felt hungry. After having a cup of tea, I still felt truly, physically hungry.
When I thought about it, my goal should be “not to snack mindlessly after dinner” instead of “just don’t eat after dinner”.
So my goal this week is evolving. If I’m truly hungry, I will eat. Being strict with myself and punishing myself is not going to work for me. I know that from the past.
I had therapy this morning and we talked about how eating has been the only way in the past that I’ve allowed myself to “care” for myself. I have such a busy life and have so many things to take care of that by the time I focused on myself, eating was all I had time for or felt like doing.
By taking the time to do things like exercise, read, do yoga/hypnotherapy, etc., I’m doing a better job of taking care of myself and will not have to turn to food in order to do so.
It’s an interesting way to look at this that I’m going to have to continue to analyze.