About 10 years ago, I had lost about 40lbs and made it into the 260s and had the most embarressing thing possible happen to me at a theme park.
I was about to get on one of those river rapids rides and the seat belt wouldn’t fit. I had to get off the ride in front of all of my friends.
Friends who had never had a weight issue in their life.
I shrugged it off and appeared to let it go.
Ever since then, every ride I go on, gives me anxiety. Until now.
I have to admit that I still have a little fear sometimes, but I just went to Hersey Park, Idlewild and Kennywood and had the greatest time.
I went on the flying horses for the first time in forever. Every seatbelt fit with room to spare. I went on the kiddie rides with my son and got to enjoy myself! I went on every ride that I wanted to and knew I would enjoy (I have a major fear of heights so I skip anything that goes high up). My weight didn’t get in the way of enjoying rides!
I feels good to feel “normal”. That’s all that I really want. Is to have a “normal” life.
“Normal” to me is not worrying about my weight. I know that isn’t true because everyone seems to worry about it no matter what their weight, but that is what’s in my brain.
I also noticed that I’m enjoying being in pictures again. I actually want pictures of me taken. I’m still super critical of them, but I’m trying to be more accepting of pictures that I don’t personally consider perfect.
I have my physical today and in the first time in a long time, I’m not stressed about it either. I have less than 10lbs to reaching 100lbs lost and I’m looking forward to reaching that milestone.