I called M with NSMC Weight Loss to discuss the change and let her know about it. She is going to call A who schedules things and deals with insurance stuff to see what we need to do.
The good news is I've had a lot of appointments lately and that will help with insurance issues. I have been seeing my surgeon and Heart and Wellness regularly to keep working at my issues.
I can't and don't blame the band.
The band didn't fail me.
It might not have been the right surgery for me, but there was nothing wrong with the band.
I am sad and disappointed in myself. No matter what anyone says, that is the way I feel.
I am happy that I'm not letting this go one though and I'm still working, trying and not giving up.
My husband is beyond adorable about the whole thing and makes me love him more. He is supportive in any decision I make (although the bypass freaks him out too) and just wants me to tell him how he can best support me. He knows that being the food police is not the answer and I will always appreciate the fact that he NEVER questions my food choices. He knows that leads to sneaking food and binges with me.
What is important now is:
- I keep trying to eat healthy and trying to lose weight
- I keep exercising
- I keep taking my supplements
- I do as much research about the sleeve as possible to be 100% sure
- I recognize that I have lost 35lbs and kept it off
- I recognize that I'm still working and that I am doing a good job by not giving up
I will get through this.