I have been eating everything under the sun. I haven't been able to get myself under control. It's like I'm rebelling against myself.
I don't know why. The worse I feel, the more I say F it and eat.
When I talked to my therapist last week I was in the beginnings of this. It just got worse and worse over the weekend.
Today I have an appointment with the nutritionist from heart and wellness.
I'm back where I started when I saw her a month ago.
I'm getting really good at maintaining.
I'm not giving up, but I'm just not feeling so hot about things right now. I feel like it's never going to happen for me so why should I bother.
I'm feeling a bit apathetic right now in general.
I did talk to my therapist about how I went a little too gung ho into the eating guidelines. We discussed how I'm going to take a step back and only focus on one at a time, adding more and more as they get eaiser.
I'm starting with "Eat only when I am hungry". That is what I'm focusing on today. Am I hungry? If the answer is yes, I'll eat. If the answer is no, then I won't eat.
It's going to be hard as I've been getting really munchy lately, but I have to break the munch habit sometime.