I found after spending a weekend away, I am still feeling a lot calmer than I was before the trip.
I'm not letting a lot of things get to me (a few have, but then I got the zen back).
I have eaten every meal since returning from Kripalu sitting down, without external distractions, in a calm environment. I'm trying to only eat when I am actually hungry and that has been successful so far.
I am not restricting myself though. The other night after I ate dinner, I really wanted something sweet when I was done. I measured out half a serving of M&Ms. Then out of habit, I wanted to go into my bedroom and eat them in front of the tv (which then they would have been gone in one throw into the mouth). I remembered that I had just finished eating dinner at the kitchen table without distraction and if I really wanted the M&Ms, I would need to do the same.
I was actually trying to eat only one M&M at a time to slow myself down and really taste them, but often ended up with a couple in my mouth (they are so small).
I am proud of myself though because I was truly satisfied and then did not feel agitated the rest of the night.
I don't want to change too much too soon though and get overwhelmed, so'm not going to let the internal distractions while eating bother me. I figure get used to eating without the external ones first and then work on something new.
Today, while eating my lunch, I turned my chair away from my desk towards my window to look out. I find that nicer and also keeps me from reaching from the computer or reading things on my desk. The whole time I had one of my favorite songs from Dropkick Murphys playing in my head. I did bring myself to be present every couple of bites, but I'm not quite there yet.
Can anyone really truly be present for a whole meal though?