I arrived about 10 minutes early because I wanted to talk to A who does the surgical scheduling and works for the surgeons. She had GBS about 10 years ago and knows how hard this journey is.
I told her about not feeling full and how even if I start to feel full, I can wait about 5 minutes and then eat more. Until I really thought about it, I didn’t even realize that I was finding my way around the band.
A did agree that I do need to work on the whole eating less thing, but it sounds like the band is emptying too quickly and therefore I might need another fill.
I had a great talk with A and I felt a lot better.
I now go to the earlier support group that is meant for people 6 months out or more. There was about 20 people there and the majority had GBS.
I sometimes wonder if I should have had GBS. It’s not like those people are all skinny and perfect, but sometimes I wonder if the other surgery would have been better for me and if I would have been more successful.
Although if Dr. B sees that he will just tell me that lap band people are never happy.
I am going to call Dr. B’s office and move up my appointment and talk to him about whether or not it’s all in my head or if I need another fill or both.
As part of the support group we did one of the nutritional quizzes on sparkpeople.com about portion sizes. I knew most of the answers and it was a good reminder on how even when I am portioning out my food, I am giving myself way too big of a portion to begin with.
I have trouble not eating what is on my plate and if I would just give myself a smaller portion to begin with then that might help.
I did track my food on myfitnesspal.com today for the first time since I got pneumonia.
I have my follow up with heart and wellness and it will be interesting to talk to them and see if they have any other suggestions beyond getting a fill.
Going to the monthly support group meeting is a big help though. I walked out of there with a “I can do this” feeling. Now just to work on keeping that feeling.