My weight is back up to 280.
I’m completely addicted to caffeine again.
I haven’t been tracking and I’ve been eating like shit.
Yesterday, I just wanted to cry and eat.
I did take action though. I threw away a lot of "problem" foods, including my son’s leftover birthday cake.
I went food shopping and bought chicken, fish, tofu, veggies, fruit, etc.
My family wanted to come over and see us after being away for a week on vacation. I let them come over, but I refused to order out. I grilled chicken and zucchini and we had that for dinner. I’m having the leftovers for lunch today.
I was considering whether or not I needed a fill since I can definitely still eat large amounts of food, but I think I’m going to wait a while and see if I can get some self control back. The band is already doing it’s job and I need to do my job now.
I did try to give up caffeine yesterday and ended up with dizziness, nausea and a headache today so I gave in and had some coffee. I’m going to keep working at it since I’m loving ice coffee and will get rid of a lot of calories just by giving that up.
I’m not going to the gym today, but I have a plan to go Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday at the least.
I’m not giving up and trying not to beat myself up, but I just feel lost right now.