Yesterday, I was wearing a really cute outfit and I got compliments and felt great. I felt cute.
Today, I just feel huge.
I talked with my therapist today about how overwhelmed I have been since my husband has been away. I just have not had any time for myself and that is a problem when it comes to my weight loss.
I am going on vacation next week, but will be returning on the Saturday night before I go back to work. I already plan to dedicate Sunday, July 31st to food shopping and preparing for a week of healthy eating.
This week I am just going to do my best to make better choices.
Tonight is Mom’s night out and I am going to go and enjoy everyone’s company.
Wednesday I will go to Aqua Zumba.
Thursday I will go to Zumba.
Friday I will be doing my last day of work before a vacation so that day will probably be hectic.
Saturday is my son’s 3rd birthday, again I will just continue to try to make good choices.
Sunday my husband and I go to Mohegan to see Daniel Tosh, I will continue to try to make some good choices.
Then we drive down to Sesame Place.
I think all I can muster up the strength to do right now is just try to be mindful of eating out and eating on the run.
I was so sad this morning when I jumped on the scale. I am angry that I feel that the "band is not working", but I can’t blame the band. I can only blame myself.
I want this to be easy and it is never going to be easy.
Sometimes I think that I should have done the bypass or the sleeve. It would have been "easier", right?
Why can’t I just do this? Why?
Just thinking about this makes me want to cry. I am at work though so unfortunately I can’t let my emotions out.
I need to start focusing more on myself again though and making sure that I am not letting myself just get away with taking the easy way out.