*sigh* I’m feeling so out of control right now

Still bloated.

Scale is still at 276.

I haven’t planned or journaled in a couple of days.  Even when I tried to on Tuesday, I went on a total binge that night.

Yesterday, I was feeling hopeless.  Like I couldn’t do it.

Today, I’m still not in the greatest mood about everything, but I’m not eating either.  I tried to eat some leftover pad thai for lunch and that got stuck after two bites and I just haven’t been hungry since.

I see my therapist tomorrow and it’s going to be good timing since I am going away on business all next week.

Today is my husband’s birthday and we are going out for dinner someplace kid friendly like Cheesecake Factory or Outback.  I have to admit that I’m pushing a bit more for Outback since the nutritional information is a little more readily available.

I’m not giving up, but I’m just feeling a little overwhelmed and out of control.  I feel like I dipped my toe in 50lbs lost and now I’m right back up to my struggle point again.  It makes me want to cry.

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About nancykerins

I am a 38 year full time working mother of one doing my best to get healthy. I had lapband surgery in November of 2010 and then had a revision to the vertical gastric sleeve in February 2012. The purpose of this blog is a therapeutic tool for me to work out my feelings and write about what is going on during this experience. If I can help others through this blog, that is just a bonus.
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One Response to *sigh* I’m feeling so out of control right now

  1. daa_zle says:

    I’m sorry you are feeling that way. I can definitely related as I am feeling the same way!
    Don’t give up, we can do this!!

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