I have not worn my CPAP since February. It is sitting on my night table, taking up room and collecting dust.
I have no urge to wear it.
I was supposed to have a follow up with my pulmonologist a couple of months ago. They called to reschedule. I asked them to call me back because I was super busy at the time. They never called back. I never called them.
I know it’s bad that I don’t wear it and I know I should probably make an appointment instead of being a non-compliant patient.
Instead of packing it up and putting it in the closet like I’ve been thinking of doing, I really should wash it up and wear it.
Most likely though, it’s going in the closet.
I have so much to deal with that I had to let something drop and this was it. I never adjusted to wearing it and it did not make me feel better. Most nights that I tried to wear it, it either kept me from falling asleep or woke me up many times in the middle of the night until I finally ripped the thing off.
If you are reading this and are supposed to be on CPAP, I do not recommend following my example. It is not a good one and well I can’t say that it’s the right thing to do. Right now though, it’s the right thing for me.