We talked a lot about how I define myself and how that is adding to my weight loss issues.
When you think of yourself? What are you?
When I think of myself, I am a fat person. I have been a fat person for 26 years. My biggest focus for 26 years has been how not to be fat.
Even thought my focus has been on how not to be fat, being fat has become who I am.
So if I lose weight, who will I become?
My therapist reminded me that I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a wife, a patient safety specialist, etc. I am so much more than just a fat person.
Why can’t I see myself that way?
I sometimes think part of the problem is I don’t have any hobbies. My husband plays pinball, poker, playstation, squash, etc.
My interests seem to involve movies and watching tv.
I do enjoy going to the gym though and in the summer, I love going to the beach or the pool.
I have tried to find other interests or hobbies, but nothing seems to stick.
Either way, I need to work on seeing me in different ways.