I was just ironing and I stopped to write this all out.
While I was ironing, I started thinking about what size I was going to be next and when and how much I could lose by summer, etc.
I know this is part of my problem.
On one side, it shows that I’m hopeful and want to get there. On the other side though, I get ahead of myself and then start doubting it can ever happen and then I self sabotage.
I am in the middle of a lapse in my diet that could easily turn into a relapse if I’m not careful.
We talked about this in therapy last week. I need to focus on today. I can’t worry about the past, I can’t worry about the future. I just need to think about what I need to do today.
So my goal today is every time I start getting ahead of myself, I’m going to try to remember to rein it in and just focus on today.