*sigh* I went on an eating spree Sunday and Monday night

So I’m supposed to be on liquids only right now to prepare for my surgery.

Between my period and being so beyond compliant on the liquids, I lost it Sunday night.

I ate popcorn, macaroni and cheese and some peanut butter.

Then I had stomach issues all night Sunday night and into Monday morning.

Then after not eating most of Monday because of the stomach issues and sticking to my liquids in the afternoon, I ate macaroni and cheese and some cookies once my son went to bed.

I’m so disappointed in myself.

All I could think while I was eating the solid foods was "nobody will know".

Well that is just lying to myself. 

I know I need to forgive myself and expect that I won’t be perfect, but it still drives me nuts that I couldn’t control myself.

I know tonight I’ll be majorly white knuckling it to get myself out of the habit.  I think I’ll go to the store after work and get some sugar free jello and sugar free popscicles so if I need something, I can have something on the liquid diet.

This is so hard!

It’s not like I expected it to be easy, I was just hoping that I would be strong enough to do this for my health and medical reasons.

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About nancykerins

I am a 38 year full time working mother of one doing my best to get healthy. I had lapband surgery in November of 2010 and then had a revision to the vertical gastric sleeve in February 2012. The purpose of this blog is a therapeutic tool for me to work out my feelings and write about what is going on during this experience. If I can help others through this blog, that is just a bonus.
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